I laugh

and think to myself

about the times i've accidentally sold my truth for the social ease

i waste my time thinking and imagining the froth of possibilities

look back and see myself the same despite my growing age
wonder when i can share this with another
there was one; no longer
myself again and the earth
like the first day

wonder if I'll change myself into something new
a pattern repeated a pattern

i'm unhinged compared to most americans
still chained to the cycle
vices
loneliness
inadequate resources
finite

I think and laugh to myself
despite all this
the air still feels so good

the light meets my eye
and my skin delivers

-Lahmadaj

Flight Numbers 93 and 175

"Out of respect for those who lost their lives and those who will always remember our heroes, United Airlines must do what should have already been done — immediately and permanently retire these flight numbers," said Greg Davidowitch, president of the Association of Flight Attendants.


Wendy Morse, a United captain and an official with the Air Line Pilots Association unit representing United pilots, said "the thought of anyone among management at United Airlines to even consider reinstating these two sacred flight numbers — on the heels of Osama bin Laden's death — demonstrates a severe disconnect from right and wrong."
-AP
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I do not mean to disrespect anyone involved in the 9/11 flight disasters.


But seriously, 'sacred flight numbers'


they are numbers
they appear everywhere
this shouts 21st century insanity


aren't there more important things to worry about
like why the daughter of a flight victim is still being fed all the american lies and gender role associations she'll spend the rest of her life cherishing as a get into heaven for free pass, or spend a life time trying to cast off while seeking truth, all of which is a bit depressing.


maybe I'm insane


-Lahmadaj 

Phelps People from Topeka

I almost began this {deleted}, then realized the {deleted}.

are these fundamentalist {deleted} going bonk bonk

probably already have, considering

{deleted} use the word hate in {deleted}'s stupid posters

{deleted} self righteously stand around acting angry and offended by the society around {deleted}

one {deleted} have helped to create

{deleted} think {deleted}'s religion is truth

{deleted} use the word hate, but have {deleted} ever read anything from the bible

anything '{deleted}'s god' had to 'say'

pretty sure if the Big Cheese Jeese was walking around

{deleted} would be slapped down and then given a flower; would that open {deleted}'s eyes

what if this supposed 'god' hates fundamentalist {deleted}, not fags as {deleted} have exclaimed

aren't {deleted} forgetting one important thing: there is no god to hate or love-there is no magical man in the sky-it's all in {deleted}'s mind-all {deleted}'s fear and hate will be with {deleted} in {deleted}'s dying time-it will stay close and take {deleted}'s energy quickly-{deleted} will cling and cling-and {deleted}'s hate will win-{deleted} will be alone with all the ghoulish froth inside of {deleted}

and if {deleted} found out Jeebus did 'hate'

then {deleted} would quickly see that he 'hates' {deleted}

{deleted} and {deleted}'s blinded impotent unconvincing biased views and {DELETED}'s hatred

I hope it eats {deleted}'s heart and digs deep inside {deleted}'s pit

turns {deleted} into mush

until {deleted} disintegrate into the ground like a wet slime mold meeting its expiration

-Lahmadaj

Florida Church Freaks Burning Books

hello

Terry Jones, of the Dove World Outreach Church in Gainesville, Florida

you are stupid and so are your followers

to think that burning any book would be of use

do you know that the Quran and the Bible are both unreal

they are indeed real in essence and human belief

held close to burning heart waiting for something

they are physically bounded paper

but they do not describe this current reality

they are a story of long past

manipulated to manipulate

you and your sheepy cohorts

if you are gong to burn one religious book

please burn all religious books

or wait, instead, burn no book

accept all of them as useful insight into your deep labyrinth of self

where the only truth is written there

low low low inside the light is burned

set yourself aflame 

and then you will be free of such seething foolery

though with such elevated egos

and impotent hate

good luck and god speed on that one

thumper

-Lahmadaj